For a spiny chair, it makes a decent stepladder.

Day 16 of 2021— I finally did something that I’ve been pushing off for several months now. It’s one of those things I didn’t need to do, but knew the payoff would be great. When I think about how much it affected me up until now, I realize I had adjusted my daily activities based on this one thing. Sure, I got by with temporary substitutes, but those only lasted for so long. Admittedly, those things were easier to replace than the thing I accomplished today.

This task required agility, balance, coordination, flexibility, and perhaps stamina. It made me conscious that if I made one wrong move, it would ruin the moment of trying to adult.

Lots of analogies come to mind. Why is it that the fruits on the highest branch taste the best or are worth the wait? And why are the best things for us the ones that make us reach?

But you know, it only took 5 minutes to do.

Ladies and gentlemen, I now bask in the fruits of my labor! It seems ages ago that I dragged my chair to climb it, to climb off it, to climb it again, and to climb off it for the last time, before sitting on it.

Did I mention the stairs and the need to walk through a bunch of stuff to get what I needed? And then I had to open everything and tidy up everything afterwards?

So really, the whole thing took 15 minutes of my time.

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As Calm as A Chair

Yikes. I haven’t written anything since May, but it feels like a year. As you probably felt similar, I approached 2020 with a thousand hopeful eyes, thinking I would take big leaps and find new answers. The last time I wrote, I didn’t realize how long quarantine would last.

I think the big world became a much smaller one with the state of everything. What I took for granted was to freely go anywhere at any given time and to find delight in distractions. As there’s much I could complain, maybe I could label 2020 as an intimate year with myself. There were many times I’d find myself feeling depressed, feeling I’m not where I’m supposed to be, and feeling that I needed to go out and do something about it. To calm down, I would try to focus on one small thing I was grateful for.

Today, as I realized the year is ending and my goals need to be renewed for next year, I started panicking and feeling like I didn’t accomplish much. How I got off that train, I found myself grateful for feeling safe enough to peacefully sit in my desk chair. And that thought somehow made me calm. I can sit here as long as I need to, think whatever I’d like, and no one’s currently interested in kicking me out or bothering me. I can do a lot from just sitting on this one chair. For now, I think it’s okay to just exist in the chair and figure out how to build a life from it.

Plus, it’s a spiny chair!

Here’s to 2021!

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